In high school I was tall and a bit nerdy. Not really too nerdy, as I was very aware of the concept and how it was typically viewed, and as such I avoided most of such behavior. It was all to no avail. I was in the out group. It was hopeless with respect to girls.
I figured at the time that it would be different at the university. Nobody would know my out-group status, hopefully the general intelligence of the student body would be higher, and ideally the women would have matured. No dice. Girls were not interested, even though my prospects were good. I found this perplexing. I knew that things had changed from my parent’s era, even from my older brother’s era. But I did not know exactly what it was, or how to handle it.
After starting my career, I thought about the situation. I figured that I could improve various skills that might be attractive to women; basically improving what are now called PUA skills (e.g. speaking with cleverness, confidence, etc.). However, I took a longer look at the women out there in my age cohort, and I tried to envision them as mothers. My assessment was not sanguine. So the conclusion became, it would be a good bit of work to try to attract a woman who probably would not make a good mother. So, for the time, I basically gave up on that front.
My Mom was perplexed by this behavior, but she did not understand the typical modern woman. For all of the subsequent decades, she still never really quite understood. Her social circle of older women were never like the modern women, so she had no frame of reference.
Eventually, in my mid-thirties, I noticed that women were starting to notice me, so I decided to give it another try. I found what I thought was a good woman, but in reality, she hid many issues well; until she didn’t. That ended in an unhappy divorce after a few years, which started a decade of accelerated self-growth. I developed skills and knowledge in many areas from this impetus. I was effectively living part of the MGTOW creed.
Then a few years ago, a fellow frivorcee at work introduced me to the manosphere. I now had a model that explained so many things so very well. It was a relief to have such. I thought about how useful it would have been for me to have had this knowledge decades ago. All men should be introduced to manosphere, if for self-defense if nothing else.